urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:face_doubt Who's to say where the wind will take you Courtney 2006-09-16T17:23:35Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:face_doubt:1025 2006-09-16T16:35:08Z 2006-09-16T17:23:35Z you've got to leave it behind stay away. don't IM me anymore. stop renting space in my head. it's done and over. you know that it is so why do act as if you care? leave me alone. we CAN'T be casual friends even though that's all you want. i tried to be nice after everything but too much has been said and too many lies have been told. i can only take so much. it's like you have a radar and you IM me on a great day just to see how i am and you ruin it. why do you feel a need to IM me even when i asked you not to? i left that all behind in ny. yes i care how you are doing but we are heading in opposite directions and that's the way i need it to be. it's too late to drag the past out. don't act like you care and i don't want to know if you still do. don't act like you are jealous when i know you're not. it's my life now and you don't need to know about it. this time around it's my turn to be happy and i'm going to do it on my own. you can take back all your secrets and we'll divide up all the lies. you lost it and you shouldn't have the pleasure of holding on to it. it has been a let down after let down and i'm tired of it. i don't need it anymore. stop messing with my head. <br />let me live. <br />let me move on. <br />let me let go. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:face_doubt:995 2006-08-19T04:02:34Z 2006-08-19T04:02:34Z rachael yamagata bailey and i went to some gay club for school but it actually was a lot of fun and we couldn't shut up. we are the presidents of the committee but all we do is laugh the whole time. i had soo much fun that day but it's all thanks to bail. i'm lucky to have her.<br />"I SECOND THE NOTION"<br /><br />i don't think about certain things like i used to. i don't care about things anymore that used to bother me. i'm enjoying my life here and i finally let this state in. i have accepted it so that now i could at least call it home. i'm done with the past and i'm moving on to the future. <br /><br />i have never been this happy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:face_doubt:305 2006-08-18T07:21:31Z 2006-08-18T07:31:20Z nothing It's late and Bailey and I really should be going to bed.